Friday, November 18, 2005

Frustrated with Life

I am so upset. the job I was hoping to get and really thought I would get...I didn't get. I talked to someone from the company FIVE times and today...I got the "thanks but no thanks" letter. I am just so depressed. We have NO money. NONE. our mtg is 2 months past due and christmas is right around the corner and here we sit. broke. once again.

K and I both have applied and applied to places and sent resume upon resume...and we get little bites..our hopes soar and then they don't pan out. I don't know that I ca handle another let down.

We have put Kyles Jeep on the market hoping it will sell and SOON so we can pay the house payments.

I am just so sad....SO sad. I would like to sit and cry, but in reality that isn't going to help anything. My heart hurts and I am tired of worrying. I have prayed and prayed and prayed until I don't know what else to do. I am starting to doubt the power of prayer and I hate that. I don't want to do that. I wish I could just understand....of course His ways are not our ways...and I have to remember that.


Cindy said...

Oh honey, I'm so sorry. I wish I had a magic wand I could wave to make it all better. Just know that I'm thinking of you, and that I do understand. (((hugs))) Keep your chin up....