Frustrated with Life

I am so upset. the job I was hoping to get and really thought I would get...I didn't get. I talked to someone from the company FIVE times and today...I got the "thanks but no thanks" letter. I am just so depressed. We have NO money. NONE. our mtg is 2 months past due and christmas is right around the corner and here we sit. broke. once again.

K and I both have applied and applied to places and sent resume upon resume...and we get little bites..our hopes soar and then they don't pan out. I don't know that I ca handle another let down.

We have put Kyles Jeep on the market hoping it will sell and SOON so we can pay the house payments.

I am just so sad....SO sad. I would like to sit and cry, but in reality that isn't going to help anything. My heart hurts and I am tired of worrying. I have prayed and prayed and prayed until I don't know what else to do. I am starting to doubt the power of prayer and I hate that. I don't want to do that. I wish I could just understand....of course His ways are not our ways...and I have to remember that.

Happy Birthday to ME!

Today is my 31st B-day, I woke up with a yeast infection. Happy Birthday to me! LOL

Mom is making me dinner tonight. Salmon patties, fried potatoes, and iced tea was my request...I am sure she will have some kind of veggie too. She is also making my FAVORITE b-day cake..."Black Bottom Cake"--choc cake made with mayo, cream cheese, and choc chips. It is YUMMMMMMMMMMMMMY!!

We are 2 days away from leaving for vacation to VA and of course I have a zillion things to do. I hate that I am such a procrastinator.

I think I am going to run to Footlocker today. they have t-shirts, 5 for $20 can't beat that!!

Spent the day at the dr's office yesterday. Logan's thumb nail got ripped out..not bent back...but actually ripped out by the shopping cart wheel at Kroger. it is partially connected so we are being really careful with it so that the growth plate doesn't get damaged. It was really awful. he is ok, but it was an awful experience and I feel SO sorry for him..that HAS to hurt. Poor baby. I feel like such a bad mom. I shouldn;t have let him get under there. Live and learn I suppose.